You hold the answers deep within your own mind.
Consciously, you've forgotten it.
That's the way the human mind works.
Whenever something is too unpleasant, to shameful for us
to entertain, we reject it.
We erase it from our memories.
But the imprint is always there.


I thing that it's  right, but thats it what humans are.


S.D.  14.12.2010    20:00

A year without rain

Can you feel me
When I think about you
With every breath I take
Every minute
No matter what I do
My world is an empty place

Like I've been wonderin the desert
For a thousand days ( ohhuh )
Don't know if it's a mirage
But I always see your face, baby

I'm missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain
Ohhohoh, Woooaaahh woaahh

The stars are burning
I hear your voice in my mind ( it's in my mind )
Can't you hear me calling
My heart is yearning
Like the ocean that's running dry
Catch me I'm falling

It's like the ground is crumbling underneath my feet
Won't you save me

There's gonna be a monsoon
When you get back to me
Ohhhh baby

I'm missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love (love)
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side (side)
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain
Ohhohoh, Woooaaahh woaahh

So let this drought come to an end
And may this desert flower again
And I need you here
I can't explain
But a day without you
Is like a year without rain
Ohhohoh

I'm missing you so much (much)
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side (side)
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain 

But now I have rain again

Airplanes My favorite song!

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
(Dreamin’, I’m fallin, Dreamin’, I’m fallin)

Lets pretend like its 98, like I’m eating lunch off of Styrofoam treys
Trying to be the next rapper coming out the A
Hoping for a record deal, to re-know my pain
Now lets pretend like I’m on the stage
And when my beat drops everybody goes insane (Ok)
And everybody know my name (B.o.B)
And everywhere I go people wanna hear me sang
Oh yea and I just dropped my new album
On the first week I did 500 thousand
Gold in the spring and diamond in the fall
And then a world tour just to top it all off
And lets pretend like they call me the greatest
Selling out arenas with big ass stages
And everybody loved me and no one ever hated
Lets try to use imagination

Ok, let’s pretend like this never happened 
Like I never had dreams of being a rapper 
Like I didn’t write raps in all of my classes 
Like I never used to runaway into the blackness 
Now lets pretend like it was all-good 
Like I didn’t live starring in a notebook 
Like I did the things I probably knew I should 
But I didn’t have neighbours that’s why they call it hood 
Now lets pretend like I aint got a name 
Before they ever called me B.o.B or a.k.a Bobby Ray 
I’m talking back before the mixtapes 
Before the videos and the deals and the fame 
Before they ever once compared me to Andre 
Before I ever got Myspace 
Before they ever noticed my face 
So let’s just pretend and make wishes out of airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now) 

(And it seems like yesterday it was just a dream, just memories)

Let’s Pretend Marshall Mathers never picked up a pen 
Let’s pretend things would’ve been no different 
Pretend people procrastinated had no motivation 
Pretend he just made excuses that was so paper thin they could blow away wit the wind 
Marshall you never gone make it, makes no sense to play the game it ain’t no way that’ll you win 
Pretend he just stand out side all day and play with his friends 
Pretend he even had a friend to say was his friend 
And it wasn’t time to move in school no changing again 
He wasn’t socially awakard and just strange as a kid 
He had a father and his mother wasn’t crazy as sh-t 
And he never dreamed he can ripped stadiums he just lazy as shit 
F-ck a talent show in the gymnasium bitch 
You won’t amount to sh-t quit day dreaming kid 
You need to get ya cranium check you thinking like an alien 
It just ain’t realistic 
Now pretend they ain’t just make him angry with this sh-t 
And there was no one he could even aim when he’s pissed with 
And his alarm went off to wake him but he did’nt make it to the rap Olympics 
Left to his plane and he missed it 
He’s gonna have a hard time explaining to Haley and Laney these food stamps and WIC shit 
Cause he never risked sh-t he hoped and he wished it 
But it didn’t fall in his lap so he ain’t even hear it he pretends that

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now) 

Always!

Come stop your crying, it will be all right. Just take my hand, hold it tight.I will protect you from all around you, I will be here…Don't you cry
For one so small, you seem so strong 

My Arms will hold you, keep you safe and warmThis bond between us can't be broken. I will be 

here don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart

Yes, you'll be in my heart From this day on, Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart, no matter what they sayYou'll be here in my heart, always

Why can't they understand the way we feel? They just don't trust what they can't explain.I know we're different, but deep inside us, we're not that different at all.

Don't listen to them, 'Cause what do they know?

We need each other, to have, to hold. They'll see in time. I know…

When destiny calls you, You must be strong…

I may not be with you, but you've got to hold on.

They'll see in time, I know…We'll show them together.

Just look over your shoulder…Just look over your shoulder…I'll be there…

Always.

S.D     18:45   13.11.2010

Ich vermisse euch!

Jedes mal denke ich 'ich schaffe das, ich bin nicht schwach. Dieses eine Jahr werde ich meistern.
Und werde dann alle wiedersehen!'
Doch in manschen Momenten wünschen ich mir bei euch in Deutschland zu sein, euch zu umarmen, euch zu sehen und einfach bei euch zu sein.
Ich vermisse euch soooo sehr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Und ich weiß ich werde euch wiedersehen in einem Jahr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

S.D.    22:11    11.11.2010

Der ewige Kampf

Sag kennst du das auch, das Problem das dich keiner so richtig kennt.

Und du einfach nicht in die Gesellschaft passt, so wie du bist.

Dann weisst du wie ich mich jeden Tag meines Lebens fühle.

Doch ich habe bemerkt das man kämpfen muss, denn ohne einen Kampf kannst du nicht sagen es ist so ich kann es nicht ändern.

Denn der Kampf wird solage ausgetragen bis einer verliert; und wenn du nicht kämpfs hast du dn Kampf schon längst verloren!

Ab jetzt werde ich MEIN Leben leben und nicht das Leben der ANDEREN!

Ich bin glücklich mit meinen entscheidungen im Leben und werde sie nicht bereuen.

Ich werde mich nicht unterkrigen lassen und weiter kämpfen, bis ich gewonnen habe!

Ich werde allen zeigen wer ICH bin und nicht jemanden den SIE haben wollen.

S.D.

10.11.2010

Seit neustem fühle ich mich,
als ob ich garnicht exestiere.
In Momenten wie diesen
wünsche ich mir
mit meine Familie zu sein.
Aber ich denke sie sind gerade zu beschäftigt mit meiner schwangeren Schwester,
doch ich verübel es ihnen nicht,
denn es ist ihr erstes enkelkind und meine erste Nichte.
In diesem Jahr werde ich es wohl bereuen
nicht bei ihre Geburt da gewesen zu sein.
Doch ich bereue nicht dieses Jahr zu machen,
da es mir paar der schönsten Momente gibt,
die ich in meinen Leben haben werde.
Es ist eine Bereicherung für mich 
und darum möchte ich hier so viel lernen wie es nur geht!
Mit dem jetzt Tchau

S.D. 

Jede Träne erzählt eine Geschichte,

der Mensch weint nicht ohne Grund.

Take my hand

Hey, Hey !
Hey, Hey !

Sometimes I feel like everybody’s got a problem.
Sometimes I feel like nobody wants to solve them.
I know that people say we’re never gonna make it.
But I know we’re gonna get through this

Take my hand tonight
Let’s not think about tomorrow.
Take my hand tonight.
We can find some place to go.
Cause our hearts are locked forever.
And our love will never die.
Take my hand tonight one last time.

Hey,Hey!!!
Hey,Hey!!!

The city Sleeps and we’re lost in the moment.
Another kiss as we’re lying on the pavement.
If they could see us they would tell us that we’re crazy.
But I know they just don’t understand

Close your eyes and please don’t let me go.
Don't Don't Don't,
Don’t let me go now.
Close your eyes don’t let me let you go.
Don't Don't Don't,

The rain drops, the tears keep falling.
I see your face and it keeps me going
If I get lost your light’s gonna guide me.
And I know that you can take me home.
You can take me home.
Take my hand tonight
Let’s not think about tomorrow.
Take my hand tonight.
We can find some place to go.
Cause our hearts are locked forever.
And our love will never die.
Take my hand tonight one last time.

Sometimes I really want someone take my hand and take me home.
That I can forget and only live the moment...
But I know it won't happen now where my dear people can't help.

S.D.       Close your eyes and please don’t let me go.
Don't Don't Don't,
Don’t let me go now.
Close your eyes don’t let me let you go.
Don't Don't Don't,

Twitter

ich sitze gerade hier und habe mir gerade einen Twitter Konto erstellt und was hat meine liebe Gast Schwester getan gleich in die ganze Welt geschwitzert!
manchmal bin ich echt wütend auf sie und ihre Aktionen.

ich schreib morgen mal wiedere etwas

S.D.

28.10.

Manchmal fühle ich mich hier fehl am Platz, doch im nächsten Moment denke ich das ich hier genau richtig bin.
Ich bin so froh darüber dieses Jahr hier zu machen, ich würde es anders nicht wollen!!
Meine Familie hier und auch meine Familie in Deutschland unterstützt mich mit alles was sie haben.
Ich liebe sie beide, ich wüsste nicht was ich machen würde wenn ich sie nicht hätte.

Der erste Blog von
S.D

27.10.10